Eddy Tan 「Coming Out: Eddy Tan’s story of being gay in a conservative Christian, Asian family」

Posted on July 30, 2014 commentaires
Earlier this month, we invited Vancity Buzz readers who identify as LGBT to submit their own ‘coming out’ stories as a way of empowering and inspiring others who may be struggling with their own sexuality.

Eddy Tan is the fourth of our reader-submitted coming out stories during Vancouver Pride Week 2014.

Eddy Tan
Age: 31
Occupation: Marketing Specialist



“We all know you’re gay, Eddy. Nobody cares. We just want you to say it.”

Someone said this to me about 14 years ago, in front of a group of teens in our high school cafeteria. He wasn’t really a friend, but he wasn’t an enemy either. He wasn’t trying to embarrass me or make me feel threatened. He was just stating what he felt was obvious.

It would have been the perfect opportunity for me to come clean. I could have just thrown up my hands and yelled, “You got me!” Instead, I told him to shut up and that was that – end of conversation. I wasn’t ready.

This one, innocent, ordinary event sums up my coming out experience quite nicely. I let the process drag on for over a decade when I could have ripped it off like a Band-Aid when I was 17. Not because of any external threat – I was never in danger of being ostracized or disowned by my family – but because of how difficult it was for me to come to terms with the truth myself.

That being said, I didn’t exactly grow up in ideal rainbow-flag-waving conditions. My family is Christian, with a capital C. Sunday school, youth group, Bible studies, and weekly services were a key part of life. My parents are leaders in their church. I was even a youth group leader and played keyboard on the worship team. I was the model young Christian.

On top of that, my parents are of Asian descent. As much as I tend to disregard stereotypes, I can’t help but feel that the cultural differences make it more difficult for Asian parents to accept a gay son/daughter. I may be wrong, but I think those of you reading this with similar backgrounds know what I’m talking about.

The cherry on the sundae is that I grew up in the suburbs, land of street hockey and nuclear family norms. Where I come from, a successful life is graduating University, landing a good job, marrying your sweetheart, moving into a nice house in a quiet neighbourhood, raising two children with a dog, and living happily ever after. I couldn’t see how I would fit into this picture perfect ideal.

I’m going to break my coming out story into three parts.

How to fail at forcing a lie
When I escaped, I mean graduated, high school, I made a conscious decision to make life what I wanted it to be, rather than follow a plan based on other people’s expectations. Perhaps there was an element of rebellion against my Christian, Asian, suburban upbringing and everything that comes with it. I’m not sure. All I knew was that I was determined to make my own path and hopefully discover more of myself along the way. Naturally, I decided to dedicate much of my early 20s to traveling the world, because what else does a 20-year old do in that situation?

Despite everything I learned and experienced during this time, despite how much I grew fundamentally as a human being, I still wasn’t able to understand or accept the simple fact that I was gay. I even dated women throughout this period – lovely, intelligent, beautiful, amazing women who I respected and even loved. My mindset has always been programmed to think, “If you want it, then make it happen!” I wanted to be straight, so I was going to date women until it happened. Needless to say, I failed pretty miserably. As much as I hate that these women wasted so much time and emotion on me, I find a tiny bit of comfort in the fact that my intentions were genuine and they helped me open my eyes to a critical truth about myself. In the end, it was easy for me to see that this wasn’t right. It felt wrong, unnatural, forced, and empty. As amazing as these women were, it felt like dating my sister.

At the age of 21, I came out to myself.

The lesson learned: You can’t force a lie to be true.

Driveway confessions & the end of pretending
I met my first real boyfriend when I was 23. He was thoughtful, funny, and full of energy. I introduced him to my friends and family, who quickly took a liking to him. The only problem was that nobody knew he was my boyfriend. To everyone except for my best friend, who knew the truth, I was straight and he was just a friend.

At first, it was kind of fun. It was our little secret. We would sneak kisses when nobody was looking and hold hands underneath the table. However, it quickly became clear to me how deceptive I was being to the closest people in my life. Still though, I couldn’t muster up the courage to tell them the truth.

Fortunately, it was short-lived. We were young and clearly not suited for each other, so we broke up. As with any breakup, it didn’t feel good. What felt even worse was that I had no one to talk to about it except for my best friend, Andrea.

One night, I was sitting in another friend’s car while parked in my driveway. We were having a heavy life conversation – the kind I feel only happen in your 20s – and I couldn’t bear it anymore. I took a deep breath and blurted it out: “I’m gay.”

There was silence. “Really?” she said. We just looked at each other. “That’s OK. I still love you.”

And thus began the Great Coming Out Spree of 2007. I told every friend that was important to me, usually in a one-on-one setting, often with a bottle or two of wine. It was interesting to see how everyone reacted – it was always different, but always positive and supportive. There were some tears and a lot of questions. Some were totally surprised while others secretly knew all along. But in the end, nothing changed except for the fact that the honesty made me stronger, as well as our relationships. I was finally able to let them in on something that had been eating away at me for years. I didn’t have to pretend anymore.

Many of the friends that I came out to were straight guys. At the time, I was surprised at how much of a non-issue this was for them. They congratulated me, hugged me, even invited me over for beers and hockey so that they could ask me questions that were on their minds. I feel stupid now looking back and realizing how much I under-estimated them.

So at the age of 24, I came out to my friends.

Lesson learned: You don’t have to pretend in front of true friends – and don’t be surprised when they surprise you.

Better late than never
Now that I had come to terms with being gay and had the acceptance of my friends, I was able to focus on building a life for myself. I hit the books again and graduated, moved to a park-side apartment in the West End, and started a career in marketing & advertising. At first, I was worried that I didn’t have much in common with “typical” gay culture, especially the more negative aspects like drugs and promiscuity. I quickly learned that using Davie St. on a Saturday night to represent gay culture is as useful as using Granville St. on a Saturday night to represent straight culture.

I met some strong, inspiring gay men and women who helped me find my footing and I started to feel like a proud, confident, well-adjusted gay man. I realized that being gay is just one aspect of who I am as a person – it doesn’t define me. It’s certainly a very fundamental and important aspect, but defining my entire identity as a gay man is like defining my entire identity as a dog-lover. Or coffee-drinker. Or semi-committed yoga enthusiast. It’s just one of many pieces of the puzzle.

I was happy living my carefree, non-closeted, downtown life when trouble struck. I met the one. I didn’t even believe in the existence of the one, or of soul mates, when it happened. All I knew was that I wanted this person to be by my side for the rest of my life. His name is Thomas.

This would normally be something to be really happy about, except for one thing: my family still didn’t know I was gay. When I was younger, I had introduced boyfriends to my family and posed them as friends. I hated myself for that then, and I couldn’t subject Thomas (or my family) to that type of deceit and awkwardness. The only solution was to come out. Again.

At the age of 29, I came out to my family. My Christian, Asian, suburban family. It wasn’t easy. After the initial moment of truth, it involved a year of debate, conversation, questions, confusion, and education. I braced myself for the worst and hoped for the best – I got something in between. By that time, I had a fairly strong sense of self – I was secure in who I was and I just didn’t consider people’s opinions about me all that important – but coming out to my family once seemed unimaginable, so the entire experience felt surreal and impossible to downplay.

The debate on whether or not being Christian and being gay are mutually exclusive was especially draining. I still consider myself a Christian. I believe in spirituality and that God exists. For me, the overarching principle of love that is the foundation of Christianity outweighs the thousands of other interpreted teachings and condemnations found in the Bible. I know how to love. That’s enough for me, and I believe that’s enough for my God.

I have to give my family credit. They don’t have much reference or experience to draw from when it comes to understanding their gay son/brother, but they’re doing their best. They’ve embraced Thomas as best they can; family events are getting more and more comfortable. Now that it’s done, I’m doing my best to be patient and to help them understand, while they’re doing their best to be understanding and accepting.

One thing that really hurt them was that I waited so long to tell them. I’ll admit, I should have done it 14 years ago, when that one comment was made in the middle of the school cafeteria. Throughout the years, I told myself (as well as everyone who asked why I hadn’t come out to my family yet) that I was waiting for the right moment and that I wanted to do it when I was more mature, so that my family wouldn’t brush it off as a phase or try to change me. Honestly though, I put it off simply because the thought of telling them scared me shirtless. That being said, you can’t force yourself to be ready just like you can’t force yourself to be straight.

Thomas and I got married last year and we’ve never been happier – he’s my husband now, so I’m allowed to speak for him! We’re busy planning for the future, which will include endless travels abroad and children to raise. But first, a puppy.

I’m writing this in hopes that it will help you muster up the courage to be yourself, whether it’s to yourself, your friends, your family, or the world. That doesn’t just apply to those who are gay, but to anyone who feels like they’re hiding or pretending. The closet is a dark, lonely place and nobody puts you there except for yourself. You are who you are – love yourself for it.

Want to know what my Christian, Asian, suburban parents said to me when I first told them I was gay? “We love you.” That’s enough for me.

EDDY TAN



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George Takei 武井穂郷 「From ‘Star Trek’ To LGBT Spokesman, What It Takes ‘To Be Takei’」

Posted on July 28, 2014 commentaires
George Takei's personal story is illuminated in the new, funny documentary 「To Be Takei」.
Victoria Will/AP

Many fans know George Takei from his role as Mr. Sulu on the 1960s show 「Star Trek」. But in the past decade, he has drawn followers who admire him because of who he is – not just who he has played. Now, the new documentary 「To Be Takei」 may interest more people in Takei’s life.

Takei’s personal story offers insights into a couple of key chapters of American political and cultural history.

After Japan bombed Pearl Harbor in 1941, Takei and his family were among the 127,000 Americans of Japanese descent forced into internment camps. He was 5 years old.

“We were first taken to the horse stables of Santa Anita racetrack because the camps weren’t built yet and we were housed there... narrow, smelly, still was pungent with the smell of horse manure. And we were housed there for about three months while the camps were being built,” Takei tells 「Fresh Air」’s Terry Gross. “And then [we were] put on railroad cars with armed guards at both ends of each car and transported two-thirds of the way across the country to the swamps of southeastern Arkansas. There [were] barbed wire fences there – tall sentry towers with machine guns pointed at us.”

As an adult, Takei became active in the civil rights and peace movements. But he couldn’t support the movement that most directly affected him, the gay-rights movement, because coming out could have ended his career. It wasn’t until after former Gov. Arnold Schwarzenegger vetoed legislation for marriage equality in California in 2005 that Takei decided to break his silence.

“That night, [now-husband] Brad and I were watching the late-night news and we saw young people pouring onto Santa Monica Boulevard, venting their rage against Arnold Schwarzenegger,” he says. “And we felt just as angry as those young people. We discussed it and we decided that I should speak out. And for me to do that, my voice had to be authentic – so I spoke to the press for the first time as a gay man.”

Now Takei is a forceful spokesman for gay rights. He has been with Brad since 1985. They were married at the Japanese American National Museum in Los Angeles in 2008.

「To Be Takei」, directed by Jennifer Kroot, was an official selection for the Sundance Film Festival.

Interview Highlights

On being closeted for most of his life
The thing that affected me in the early part of my career was ... there was a very popular box-office movie star – blond, good-looking, good actor – named Tab Hunter. He was in almost every other movie that came out. He was stunningly good-looking and all-American in looks. And then one of the scandals sheets of that time – sort of like『The Enquirer』of today – exposed him as gay. And suddenly and abruptly, his career came to a stop.

That was, to me, chilling and stunning. I was a young no-name actor, aspiring to build this career – and I knew that [if] it were known that I was gay, then there would be no point to my pursuing that career. I desperately and passionately wanted a career as an actor, so I chose to be in the closet. I lived a double life. And that means you always have your guard up. And it’s a very, very difficult and challenging way to live a life.

On growing up in Japanese internment camps
I grew up imprisoned in American barbed wire prison camps simply because Japanese-Americans – American citizens of Japanese ancestry – happened to look like the people who bombed Pearl Harbor. For that, we were summarily rounded up and imprisoned with no charges, and therefore we couldn’t call for a trial ... and [there was] no due process.

I had just turned 5. ... The soldiers with bayoneted rifles came to our home in Los Angeles and ordered us out of [our] home.

On life after the internment camps
When we were released, I was almost 9. My baby sister was almost 5. ... She was an infant when we went in, and my younger brother was a year younger. The coming out [of the camp] was, to us kids, the most terrifying part of it because we [had] adjusted to the routine of living in imprisonment.

We were penniless. The hatred was still intense. The first job my father was able to secure was as a dishwasher in a Chinatown restaurant [in Los Angeles]. Only other Asians would hire us. Our first home was on Skid Row. That was really traumatic for us – the stench of urine everywhere.

On being a Hollywood actor in the 1960s
That was a time when most roles for Asians or Asian-Americans were very stereotyped, very shallow, cardboard figures, and not very attractive stereotypes at that – the buffoon, or the pliant, silent servant, or the evil villain.

When I decided to become an actor – and I had those discussions with my father – I promised him that I would not do anything that would make him ashamed. And so I had been avoiding stereotyped roles. Until, one day, my agent came up with me for this – as they called it “opportunity” – in a Jerry Lewis movie.

He said, “Jerry Lewis movies make tremendous money at the box office. They’re very successful and it’s very important for a young actor to be associated with a moneymaking project.”

And I said, “Fred, this is the very kind of role that we don’t want to get – and I really don't feel up to playing that.”

On Star Trek’s success
When we were filming the pilot for 「Star Trek」 back in 1965, I said to Jimmy Doohan [the actor who played Scotty in the series], “I smell quality with this series.”

Well, the scripts were intelligent, well-written scripts and the actors were very fine, professional actors. And I told Jimmy, “We’re going to be proud of what we did, but this means we’re in trouble.”

Because all the TV series that I loved – all the ones that I thought had some substance – were immediately canceled.

And I said, “We won’t last a season.”

Well, I was wrong on that – we lasted three seasons. But nevertheless, we were canceled, so I had no idea in reruns we would finally find our audience and become enormously popular.

On speaking out for LGBT rights for the first time as a gay man
It was liberating. It was so freeing, but at the same time I was prepared for my career to go on the downward, but the polar opposite happened – it has blossomed. I was invited to do guest appearances ... as gay George Takei [on various shows such as] 「Will & Grace」 or 「The Big Bang Theory」. I got the invitation from Howard Stern to be his official announcer, which [Brad] and I talked about, too.

I’ve been on speaking tours advocating for equality for the LGBT community. But what we noticed was I was already talking to the converted – either LGBT people or allies – and what we needed to do was reach what I maintain is the decent, fair-minded, vast middle – people who are busy pursuing their lives and don’t stop to think about other issues.



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Acteurs X

Posted on July 26, 2014 commentaires
Acteurs asiatiques dans l’industrie pornographique gay occidentale

Voici une liste non-exhaustive d’acteurs asiatiques dans le porno gay occidental (enfin, plutôt nord-américain), et leurs filmos toutes aussi non-exhaustives. Certains ne sont peut-être pas « réellement » asiatiques, mais sont parfois catalogués sous ce terme. Toute aide est évidemment la bienvenue pour compléter cette liste, que nous mettrons à jour régulièrement !
Nous vous conseillons de lire l’article de Richard Fung, très daté, mais toujours pertinent, que nous avons reproduit là : http://chinkoxchinko.blogspot.fr/2014/07/richard-fung-looking-for-my-penis.html, ainsi que l’interview de Peter Le.

Aaron
Adam Kim
Al Wong
aka H.K. Canon
Alessandro Madera Cruz Alessandro Madera Cruz
aka Alessandro Madera Cruz, Ernesto Cruz Jr., Zandro Cruz
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「Casting Couch, Vol. 11」 directed by Carlos Caballero, Strongboli / Sarava Productions, Kristen Bjorn Productions, 2013
Alex Case
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「Adam Baer Fucks Alex Case」 directed by Bruce Cam / BrokeStraightBoys, 2013
「Ayden Troy & Alex Case」 directed by Bruce Cam / BrokeStraightBoys, 2012
「Alex Case」 directed by Bruce Cam / BrokeStraightBoys, 2012
Andy Honda Andy Honda
aka Andrew Honda, Alan, Brandon, Britton Harcout, Cody
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Archer Quan Archer Quan
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Brandon Lee
aka Jon Enriquez, Sean Martinez, Michael Hernandez
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Brian Le

Brian Peters
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Chase Sterling
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Christian Thorn Christian Thorn
aka Clayton Tait Johnson
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「Christian & Josh」 / Randy Blue, 2012
「Christian Thorn」 / Randy Blue, 2011
Christian Yamaguchi
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Coda Filthy
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Cooper Dang
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Cory Koons Cory Koons
aka Darren Kinoshita
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「Eat Pray Load」 / Raw Fuck Club, Dark Alley Media, 2013
「I Want Your Load」 / BarebackRT Media, 2013
「Golden Gushers」 / All Worlds Video, 2010
「Raw and Ready (Alan Stafford)」 / Male Solos, Playgirl, 2009
「Shocking Monster Cocks」 / Male Spectrum, 2009
「About to Bust」 / Male Solos, Playgirl, 2008
「Jock Itch 2: Balls to the Wall」 / Raging Stallion Studios, Screaming Eagle XXX, 2008
「20 Fist Weekend Part 2」 / Dark Alley Media, 2007
「Ink Storm」 / Raging Stallion Studios, Screaming Eagle XXX, 2007
「Pissed Off Pissed On」 / All Worlds Video, 2005-2009
「The Best of Remy Delaine Vol. 1」 / Raging Stallion Studios, 2005-2006
「Lube Job」 / Raging Stallion Studios, 2005
「Arabesque (Remy Delaine)」 / Raging Stallion Studios, 2005
「Köllide」 / Channel 1 Releasing, Rascal Video, 2005
「Party in the Rear」 / Raging Stallion Studios, Monster Bang, 2005
「Köllide: Director's Cut」 / Channel 1 Releasing, Rascal Video, 2005
「Dirty Young Bucks」 / Rascal Video, 2004-2007
「Stoked Part 2」 / Raging Stallion Studios, 2004
「Pig Trough」 / All Worlds Video, 2004
「Never Been Touched」 / Rascal Video, Channel 1 Releasing, 2004
「Stoked Part 1」 / Raging Stallion Studios, 2004
「Fisting Feast Volume 1」 / All Worlds Video, 2001-2006
「Humongous Cocks 2」 / Raging Stallion Studios, 2000-2005
Dale
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Damian Dragon
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Dematthew Yung

Dion

Eli Lewis
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Eric East Eric East
aka Eric Bao
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Eric Kim

Frank Stallion
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Immanuel Immanuel
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Isaac Lin
aka Izzac Lin
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Jason Lee

Jessie Lee
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Joey Verro
aka Joseph

Johnny Angel Johnny Angel
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Jordan Young Jordan Young
aka Billy Kemp
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「Mike Branson: My Big Fucking Dick」 / Falcon Studios, 2012
「Pulse Action 1」 / Metro, 2004
「The Backseat Boys」 / Metro, 2003
「Salami Smugglers」 / Metro, 2003
「Hung & Horny」 / Metro, 2003
「Twink Panther (Vivid Man)」 / Vivid Man, 1999-2006
「Hardcore (Adam Hart)」 directed by Chi Chi LaRue / All Worlds Video, 1998
「Falcon 10 Pack No. 2」 directed by Chad Donovan, Chi Chi LaRue, Chris Steele, John Bruno, John Rutherford, Matthew Rush, Steven Scarborough / Falcon Studios, Jocks Studios, Mustang Studios, 1997-2009
「White Hot (Troy Halston)」 directed by Chi Chi LaRue  / All Worlds Video, 1997
「Initiation 2: Hell Week」 directed by Jim Steel / Vivid Man, 1997
「Hung Riders 2: The Heat is On」 directed by Brad Austin / Catalina, 1997
「The Freshmen (Falcon Pac 110)」 directed by John Rutherford / Falcon Studios, 1997
「Nine By Five」 / Vivid Man, 1996
「Muscle Hunk」 / Vivid Man, Vivid Man 4-Hour, 1996
「Tool to Butt」 / Vivid Man, Vivid Man 4-Hour, 1996
「The Company We Keep (Jake Taylor)」 directed by Chi Chi LaRue / Catalina, 1996
「Idol in the Sky」 directed by Chi Chi LaRue / Men of Odyssey, 1996
「Total Corruption 2: One Night in Jail」 directed by Chi Chi LaRue / HIS Video, 1996
「Rescue 69-11」 directed by Jim Steel / Vivid Man, 1996
「Our Trespasses」 directed by Mike Donner / All Worlds Video, 1996
「Love Money」 / Catalina, 1996
「Lost in Vegas」 directed by Chi Chi LaRue / All Worlds Video, 1996
「Lip Lock」 directed by Chi Chi LaRue / All Worlds Video, 1996
「Driven (Falcon Pac 104)」 directed by John Rutherford / Falcon Studios, 1996
「Dino Dreams On」 directed by Jim Steel / Vivid Man, 1996
「Dax」 directed by Jim Steel / Vivid Man, 1996
「Naked Truth (Daryl Brock)」 directed by Chi Chi LaRue / Catalina, 1995
「The Best of Tom Chase」 directed by Chi Chi LaRue, John Rutherford / Falcon Anthology Series, Falcon Studios, 1995-1999
「Sticky Buns (Vivid Man)」 / Vivid Man 4-Hour, 1995-2000
「Point of View (Minotaur)」 directed by Ross Cannon / Minotaur, 1995
「Touched by an Anal」 / Vivid Man 4-Hour, 1995-1997
「The Ryker Files」 directed by Jim Steel / Vivid Man, 1995
「Night Watch II (Mustang Pac 043)」 directed by Chi Chi LaRue / Mustang Studios, 1995
「Inches Away (Mustang Pac 044)」 directed by Chi Chi LaRue / Mustang Studios, 1995
「Chi Chi LaRue's Collection Vol. 1」 directed by Chi Chi LaRue / HIS Video, 1993-1995
「Total Corruption 1 & 2」 directed by Chi Chi LaRue / HIS Video, 1993-1995
「Laymen」 / Vivid Man 4-Hour, 1992-1999
「Bottom Boy Bonanza 2」 / Vivid Man 4-Hour, 1992-1996
「Positions of Mine 69」 / Vivid Man 4-Hour, 1992-1995
「Self-Sucking Studs: Falcon Four Hours」 directed by Bill Clayton, Chi Chi LaRue, John Rutherford, Paul Baressi / Falcon Studios, 1988-2008
Kai Kato
aka Kai, Kai Raven
Keith Soreno Keith Soreno
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Ken Ken
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Ken Mifune
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「Men Amongst The Ruins」 directed by Bruce Cam / Titan Men, 2012
「Casting Couch, Vol. 11」 directed by Kristen Bjorn / Kristen Bjorn Productions
Ken Ott
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Kevin Wood Kevin Wood
aka Kevin Woods, Casez, Jason Crystal, Jason Kayz, Jason Krystal, Kay, Kay Tatsahiko, KB, KC
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「Marcus Got Mojo」 directed by Chris Steele / Jet Set Men, 2011
「Cruise Collection 99: Sucking Up」 directed by Jake Cruise / Jake Cruise Media, 2010
「Minute Man 33: Heads Up!」 directed by John Rutherford / Colt Studio, 2010
「Mason Wyler: Welcome to My World 6」, Next Door Studios / 2009
「Straight Edge: Volume Four」 directed by Josh Tegan / Jet Set Men, 2009
「Dirk Yates College Cocks Volume 3」 directed by Dirk Yates / All Worlds Video, 2009
「TommyD & Friends Vol. 20」 / Next Door Studios, 2008-2009
Kieron Kieron
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「Kieron Solo」 / ChaosMen, 2010
Lee Heyford
aka Lee Hayford
「Anal Obsession」 directed by Maxwell Barber / Dirty Ladz, 2010
「Sleaze」 direted by Christopher X / X Offender Entertainment, 2008
「Fisting Underground Part 3」 directed by Matthias von Fistenberg / Dark Alley Media, 2007
「Out on the Farm」 directed by Maxwell Barber / Alphamale Media, 2007
「Fistpack 13: Fist and Shout 2」 directed by David Hempling / Raging Stallion Studios, Fisting Central, 2007
「Fistpack 12: Fist and Shout 1」 directed by David Hempling / Raging Stallion Studios, Fisting Central, 2007
「Tools!」 directed by Maxwell Barber / Bulldog XXX, 2007
「Über-Pig: The Danny Fox Collection」 directed by Matthias von Fistenberg, Owen Hawk / Dark Alley Media, 2006-2007
「Fisting Underground Part 2: Live」 directed by Matthias von Fistenberg / Dark Alley Media, 2006
「Fisting Underground Part 1」 directed by Matthias von Fistenberg / Dark Alley Media, 2006
「Folsom Filth」 directed by Brian Mills / TitanMen, 2006
「Pure Leather: The Best of TitanMen Leather」 directed by Brian Mills, Bruce Cam / TitanMen, 1997-2013
Lee Young Lee Young
aka Joel, Able Liu
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Louis Lee Louis Lee
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Mason Avery
aka Milo
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「Barebacking Fuck Buddies」 directed by Jake Cruise / Cocksure Men/Jake Cruise Presents, 2009
「BarBack」 directed by Ben Leon / Raging Stallion Studios, 2008
「Piss Drinkers And Bareback Fuckers」 directed by Ben Baird / SX Video, 2007
「Straight Men Fucking」 directed by Ben Baird / SX Video, 2007
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「Creme of Sum Yung Gai」 / Far East Features, Catalina, 2004
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aka Tristan Tran, Patrick Ly
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「Creampie Twinks」 directed by I.C. Rice / Rising Son Video, 2009
「Revenge Of The Rice」 directed by I.C. Rice / Rising Son Video, Miami Studios, 2008
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「Bondo Gods Volume 5」 directed by Van Darkholme / Muscle Bound Productions, 2005
「House of Detention」 directed by Matthew Moore / Can-Am Productions, 2002
「3Ways: The Best of TitanMen」 directed by Brian Mills, Bruce Cam, Harold Creg, Paul Wilde / TitanMen, 2000-2010
「3 Easy Pieces」 directed by Bruce Cam, Harold Creg, Brian Mills / TitanMen, 2000
「Lords of the Lockerroom」 directed by Matthew Moore / Can-Am Productions, 2000
Yoshi Kawasaki Yoshi Kawasaki
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「BOSS.II」 directed by Sam Barclay / UK Hot Jocks, 2014
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Tony Wong 「Star Trek’s John Cho breaks barriers as romantic lead: ‘I would call this revolutionary’」

Posted on July 16, 2014 commentaires
“Asians narratively in shows are insignificant,” says John Cho, the romantic lead in the fall series Selfie. “So to be in this position ... is a bit of a landmark.”

BEVERLY HILLS — John Cho in a romantic lead?

It’s hard to remember the last time an Asian male played a romantic character in a television series. Unless you count the time George Takei as Sulu in 「Star Trek」 groped Uhura. But that’s because he was momentarily insane.

Asians are among the most under-represented minority group on TV and Asian males in romantic leads are practically unheard of.

But Cho now finds himself starring in a modern remake of 「Pygmalion」 and the colour-blind casting of himself as “Henry” with co-star Karen Gillan (「Doctor Who」) as Eliza Dooley in ABC’s 「Selfie」 for the fall TV season.

“I would call this revolutionary. It’s certainly a personal revolution for me,” said the 42-year old actor who says he normally never gets offered such roles. Fans may best know the actor as the current Sulu in the rebooted 「Star Trek」, or as stoner Harold Lee of 「Harold & Kumar Go To White Castle」.

“Asians narratively in shows are insignificant. They’re the cop, or the waitress, or whatever it is. You see them in the background. So to be in this position ... is a bit of a landmark,” says Cho.

「Selfie」 tells the story of Dooley, who seeks the help of Henry, who happens to be a marketing whiz, to remake her Internet brand. In the process, he changes who she is as a person.

Creator Emily Kapnek says producers initially thought along more conventional lines, casting someone who was British in the vein of the original Henry Higgins character.

“The casting process was pretty extensive ... the idea was to find someone several generations older and British,” says Kapnek. “We looked at tons of different actors, and really once we kind of opened our minds and said let’s get off of what we think Henry is supposed to be and just talk about who is, we just need a brilliant actor — and John’s name came up.”

Kapnek said it was ABC who first brought up the idea of colour-blind casting.

Once Cho was cast, writers decided not to dwell on the inter-racial relationship, making it a non-issue in the storyline.

“To not even talk about it is a really new and, I think, mature way to look at it,” says Cho.

There aren’t obvious similarities between Cho’s tech-savvy character and the curmudgeonly Henry Higgins who teaches Eliza Doolittle linguistics in George Bernard Shaw’s 「Pygmalion」.

But Cho says he could relate to the role from his experience as a high school English teacher in California.

His immigrant background (he was born in Seoul, South Korea) also helped him to further appreciate the spirit of Henry Higgins, a character who has spent his life studying the mannerisms and speech of others.

“As an immigrant, I learned by watching other people,” says Cho. “When you’re not born in this country, you kind of study how people talk and how they act and you try and break things down.”

Unlike Eliza, Cho doesn’t have a lot of choice when he finds himself needing a mentor for his upcoming role. The question is, will his new-found leading man status pave the way for other actors of colour?

“I sure hope so,” he says.




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Beenzino 빈지노 「How Do I Look?」

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Beenzino 「How Do I Look?」 - from『Up All Night』July 16, 2014.

Directed: DIGIPEDI

Director of Photography: TREEVIEW_김의관 (Kwan Kim)

Beenzino attend son linge dans une laverie automatique fréquentée par les participants de 「Korea’s Next Top Model: Guys & Girls」 ! Si le rappeur fait le timide, les apprentis mannequins le sont beaucoup moins. Lee Cheol Woo & Shin Jae Hyuk nous ont particulièrement tapé dans l’œil :



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Lauren Devine feat. Yen Tech 「Breathworks」

Posted on July 14, 2014 commentaires

Lauren Devine feat. Yen Tech 「Breathworks」 - from『FolkLaur』released on July 14, 2014.

Director and Editor :: David Riley
Assistant Director :: Zak Krevitt
Red Camera Operator :: Cory Hill
Assistant Camera: Daniel Rampulla
Color Correction :: Alex Gvojic

Assistants:: Ryan Morris, Brenden Olsen, Jimmy Tagliafera
Stylist :: Nick Lugovina

Dancer :: Mela Murder

Special Thanks To
Rafael de Cardenas
Jake Yuzna
Museum of Arts and Design
Club Republic
Hookah Jay



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f(x) 에프엑스 「Red Light」

Posted on July 07, 2014 commentaires

f(x) 「Red Light」 - from『Red Light』release on July 07, 2014.

f(x) est (enfin) de retour ! Après le four (injustifié) de 「Rum Pum Pum Pum」, 「Red Light」 renoue avec l’electro-pop aux rythmes acides qui avait fait leur succès. Surtout, les filles ne suivent pas la tendance sportswear, et adoptent un look plus pointu et bien plus sombre, un mélange gothique et armée, qui les replace dans leur concept de groupe « expérimental » (bon, c'est tout relatif, ça reste de la K-pop, hein !).


f(x) 에프엑스
Official Website (South Korea): http://fx.smtown.com/
Official Website (Japan): http://www.fx-jp.jp/
Facebook: https://www.facebook.com/fx.smtown


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Idris + Tony 「Rise of the Asian Male Supermodel」

Posted on July 01, 2014 commentaires
Hao Yunxiang

The rise of Asian supermodels ranks among the most important things to happen within the modeling industry’s past decade. The girls may get the bulk of the attention, but the elite group of Asian male models is every bit as exciting. Boys like Sung Jin Park, Phillip Huang, Jae Yoo and Daisuke Ueda are dynamic in campaigns and editorials alike – bringing elegance to every shot all while breaking boundaries. Photography duo Idris & Tony capture these superstars in an exclusive portfolio for Models.com. Check out our interview with Idris & Tony here! [or scroll down]

Park Sung Jin Philip Huang Daisuke Ueda
Jae Yoo Alex Manning Daniel Liu
Andrew Moore Satoshi Toda Krit McClean
Noma Han Scott Neslage Tony Chung
Ryohei Yamada Dae Na

Interview with Idris & Tony

Diversity has been the buzzword in the fashion industry of late, and few understand its importance quite as well as the rising young photographers Idris & Tony, who are, respectively, African- and Asian-American. As an accompaniment to their gorgeous portfolio of the rising crop of Asian male models for MDX, the pair talk with Models.com about growing up with discrimination, their favorite new and established faces, and their hope to help turn Asian males into an object of desire like their counterparts, in a personal twist that I (as a young Asian-American) and everyone will surely be able to appreciate. Intro text by Jonathan Shia

(See the photos in MDX here)

Tell me about your backgrounds and how that influenced you in choosing this project?

Idris: Being black in America I can certainly relate to discrimination. Growing up in New York City exposed me to various cultures and I’ve always been intrigued by the beauty of Asian culture. I know this project is very personal to Tony because of the struggle he has had as an Asian American.

Tony: Growing up in the mid-west presented many challenges including a sense of pride in who I am as an Asian American and most certainly from a masculine stand point. Born to a Taiwanese mother and a Caucasian father, I grew up with my dad in a single parent household in rural Illinois.

I can remember kids running around me saying “Chinese, Japanese, dirty knees.” Looking back, I guess they said my knees were dirty because they thought I worked in the rice paddy fields? My Asian features paired with a pre-conceived physical stereotype put me at a disadvantage from my all American male counterparts. I received back handed compliments from the girls like “Your hair is so straight and silky. I wish I had beautiful hair like yours” and “Your high cheek bones make you so exotic.” Sure, I can appreciate those words now as an adult, but as a teenage boy those are the words I had only ever heard used to describe females. Hearing them at that time was emasculating.

It wasn’t until my late ’20s when I visited Taipei that I heard words like “handsome” and “good looking” used to describe my features. I could tell by their delivery that the attraction was from a place of desire for me as a whole and not a dissection of my features. Hearing those words finally made me feel masculine, and even if they had been spoken to me before in my homeland of America the overall environment made the words fall on deaf ears.

Although there has recently been a greater visibility of Asians in Western advertising, we are still mostly typecast as the sidekick, but when will we be the leading man, the object of desire? So we approached the project from a Western perspective photographing Asian male models in various denim pieces because you can’t get much more American than t-shirts and jeans.

Idris: We wanted to draw on their masculinity without completely removing them from their personal demeanor. We didn’t want them too polished or to create a false illusion, but rather capture them from the perspective that they are naturally handsome men.

Tony: Our hope is that this series of portraits within this project inspires society to re-consider the way they view Asian males, specifically in America. That our industry colleagues use their “persuASIAN” to give young Asian males around the world an array of role models whom they share the same features and demeanor with. I wonder at times where my confidence would have taken me if I had these role models.

Is there anyone that you wished you could have shot but weren’t able to?

Idris: This is just the beginning of an on going project so there is still time for us to work with guys like Zhao Lei, Paolo Roldan and Godfrey Gao. We’re also excited to meet Sang Woo Kim, a new face out of London.

Tony: I would love to include Kevin Louie in this project. He was the first Asian male model I ever saw flipping through fashion magazines. In addition I find Seijo Imazaki inspiring, not only as an Asian American model, but also as an artist, a father, and loving husband. He is a man who has beaten the odds.

Who made an exceptional impression on you and why?

Idris: There is something so charming about Jae Yoo. He has a heart of gold and it really shows in his character. We’ve had the pleasure of photographing Jae for various projects as well as casting him for numerous fashion shows. His work ethic is one to be admired.

If you could have any magazine or brand come to you and say, shoot this Asian male model, what brand would it be and which model would you choose for it?

Tony: Since we are talking about portraying Asian men in a more desirable nature and changing a stereotype then it would have to be Calvin Klein. The brand has used Hidetoshi Nakata in a campaign for the X underwear line, but again he is one of four guys in that campaign. Give us our own stage. They’ve done it for Latinos with the use of Antonio Sabato Jr. They’ve done it for Caucasians many times with the likes of Joel West, Jamie Dornan, and most recently Matthew Terry.

Idris: Calvin Klein campaigns are seen in shopping malls, on television, billboards, magazines and social media across the world. You may not have seen him in the movie Amistad, but you know you saw Djimon Hounsou’s beautiful African body in their Steel underwear campaign.

Tony: We love the idea of using a fresh face so we would cast Krit McClean. He has the body and attitude for the underwear campaign, the face for fragrance and eyewear, not to mention the overall look and fit for the collection. He has both commercial appeal and an editorial edge to really compete with his white counterparts. And that’s even playing it safe. Krit’s half Thai and half British, but the industry has already been playing it safe so why not push the envelope a little bit further. Make him a leading man and the object of desire for a girl like Christy, Kate, Natalia, or Lara.


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